More From The Poetics Of Shane

“Night Sounds”

It drives me crazy that I cannot have you. My startled twin has ripped you from my arms. You are trapped in my conscience once again. If I had you, would I even want you? Is it the chase that excites me? You are my obsession. You have been for years. I will breathe you in until the day I die; traces of your name on my breath as I gasp for air. How did such a lost soul become my muse? Like you deserve to sit in my light! You have done nothing for me, but suck my soul away, making me scream inside for another glimpse of you, just one more chance. I would put my hand out to you this time. Holding you close in my arms. Never letting you go. Kiss your lips so that you could taste my misery. Swapping our spit so that you could understand what it is to be me and I you. You give me purpose. Sometimes I walk in circles trying to channel your spirit. My tower is faulty. I haven’t felt you for months. You have walked away from me. You have left me behind in the cold. I am frozen now and confused. I don’t know where to go next. Like a ghost, you have disappeared, leaving behind tiny footsteps I cannot hear.


“Holy Water”

Why do you exist in my mind every waking moment of my day?
I go to bed with you in spirit
Do you know this?
Do you understand that your soul lives in me?
I love you, like I’ve loved no other
No man will ever affect me as you do
I will love you until I am one with the sand and soil
I will be watered by the rain and sprout a seed for you
I will grow from the ground and bloom into a beautiful flower
As bright and present as I wish you could have been in my living years

I walk past your old room on my way to town
The one with the long, crooked window at the side of the house
You would keep your blinds shut so no one could see inside
There you would hide from the light of the world

I would have despised the life you once lived
If I had known you then as I am now
I would have been displeased with your discord…
Now I find myself in full acceptance of you
If only in my thoughts
Would I be so virtuous in the presence of your physical reality?
I believe I would

Solely as I have chosen you
Your memory has chosen me


“Angel Wings”

I wanted you in my bed this morning
I wanted to roll over and put my arms around you
Inhaling your faded scent from the night before

Tears melted into my pillow
My sheets were cold and empty
Carrying years worth of lonely nights without you

Do we all die with our unspeakable thoughts?
I don’t want to die without ever speaking my thoughts to you